Progress

I'm making so much progress with this heartbreak... but I have a feeling that it will just happen again...
Is it bad when you like someone that is a lot older than you?

Well I do... &....
he's _____ years old...

Done..

This is messing with my head.

This is messing with my life.

I thought I was more than a friend.

I could have been your wife!

I can't stop thinking about you.

How could you just forget about me like that?

She can't be in your life too!

It's just all so jacked!

As much as I want to forget about you, I can't.

I would have drove all that way!

I really do want you back. Even when everything's not okay..

I still love you, If only you loved me too.

Lovely.

"Remember a while ago when we both agreed not to date anybody else?"
"yeah, and I haven't."
"Realllly?"
"really."
"Do you still feel like that towards me?"
"well duh!"

When he said that I knew I was going to be, once again, the victim. Why the victim you say? It all just leads to my heart being broken again.

You said it.

Right when he said "much love" is when I knew it would end. I thought you were the one. Both of you had a heart next to the status, i knew. Then i saw the, "May 14,2010", I knew it all. You were my everything. you may think what you are doing is not wrong, it's not. I'm happy for you, honest! But you were mine first! Why can't you treat me like before? I thought you loved me. Guess not. If you didn't treat me differently while dating her, I wouldn't have a least bit problem with you two. But you can't treat me like that and expect me to just stay with you. It's all gone. You, me, us.

I felt like my whole heart fell into a bottom-less pit, falling with no ending. Confused, on where to end, or turn. Have you ever felt this way? It just never stops! I don't even know where to begin anymore. Has life given up on me? Or did I give up on it?

I feel dead.