Searching for more.

I wimper through the thoughts in my head.
I grieve on the sorrow.
i cannot tell if it's dread.
will I even feel this tomorrow?
To my discovery;
yes.
What is the recovery?
Why am I a mess?

I know what I want to be,
but how do I set these feelings free?
I'm stuck in one big hole,
and I can't help but feel dull.

What am I looking for?
I am so confused!
I'm still searching for more.
what is it have I refused?
my inner thoughts?
my inner feelings?
I don't even know what they are!

I'm still stuck in stage one,
& I don't think I'll ever be done.